Tagged as: emtiful, meditation, meedosite, memories

Meedo! = Meedo x (Meedo-1) x (Meedo-2) x (Meedo-3)…

In math­e­mat­ics, the fac­to­r­ial of a pos­i­tive inte­ger n, denoted by n!, is the prod­uct of all pos­i­tive inte­gers less than or equal to n.

This has been the longest I’ve gone with­out post­ing a new story. For the past 10 days I’ve been work­ing on (and off) my port­fo­lio and when I look back on pre­vi­ous work I get into a pen­sive mood. And when I think I don’t feel. And when I don’t feel I don’t write.

I sim­ply hate going over the past. While many peo­ple sing the val­ues of self-critique, for me it’s use­less. By default every project I’ve done in the past is bad, or at the very least not good enough. And I rec­og­nize the short­com­ings of each the instant it’s done. And while that may be a healthy atti­tude to have towards one’s own work (it keeps one moti­vated and chal­lenged) it just makes me want to burn it all (or, in the case of my dig­i­tal work, Secure Empty Trash it all with ran­dom zeros and ones.)

If today I’m the prod­uct of the Meedos I was yes­ter­day, the day before, and the day before that all the way back to the instant I was con­ceived, then I don’t need those other iter­a­tions of myself. They can all dis­in­te­grate. All I want is the me in the now.

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